(formerly dreamingofaplaceiveneverbeen as well as several other URLs that were much too long) 23, Para-Librarian, Christian

Appreciator of all things to do with: Books, Doctor Who, Jane Austen. C.S. Lewis, Dickens, LOTR, Sherlock, Castle, Fringe, LBD and EA

... And anything that make me go "Oo!" with delight.

"Life isalways better with unique punctuation attached."




Oscar Wilde goes up to the counter and orders a grande hot chocolate and a muffin for his invalid friend Bunbury. The barista asks him if he is ordering in earnest. No one picks up the drink.


Clara doesn’t lie to Danny because he would somehow try to forbid her to travel with the Doctor. He doesn’t - and shouldn’t have - that kind of power over her. And keep in mind that he has been supportive of her travelling with the Doctor. He even encouraged her to not quit in anger and told her to have fun on the Orient Express. All he ever demanded from her was honesty. Honesty and allowing him to help her when she had a problem.

Clara doesn’t lie to the Doctor because he would necessarily care about Danny approving or disapproving. The Doctor is the Doctor, Danny is Danny, there’s still not a lot of love lost between them, even if the Doctor seems to have moved on from his total rejection of Danny.

Clara lies so she doesn’t have to examine her choices. If she told Danny the truth, then she would have to face up to the fact that she decided to continue travelling with the Doctor against her better judgement. She’d have to speak about being impulsive, about ignoring everything that happened before. She’d have to speak about the addiction to the thrill of this kind of life… and not the Doctor’s, but her own.

And if she told the Doctor the truth, she would have to confront that that is why she did it.

Oh Clara.

Where will this lead you.




- A lot of people died and maybe the wrong people survived.
- Yeah, but we saved the world, right?
- We did. You did.
- OK, so, on balance…
- Balance?
- Yeah, that’s how you think, isn’t it?


"But we saved the world, right? So… on balance…"

Clara took on his role. Not the Eleventh Doctor’s, but clearly the Twelfth’s, with none of the lightness of the former and all of the abrasiveness of the latter.

The scene in the flat turns the Doctor/companion dynamic on its head. It’s the Doctor who warns Clara to behave in a way which isn’t alarming and it’s Clara who fails only seconds later. She’s losing her hold on that bit of empathy which she needs to understand what she can say around people who are not used to this kind of life.

Later her first instincts is to lie to people to give them hope, fully knowing that at least some of them would probably die. There’s no gentle approach to make people do what she wants, it is “I am the one chance you’ve got of staying alive” and “you wanna walk, walk”. We’ve seen her in command before, but this is a new, darker tone.

Clara has seen two peole die in front of her and she drops them from her thoughts moments later. She adopted the Doctor’s approach to death instinctively, when she finds herself in his role. And so the woman who changed the world with just the power of her tears does no longer have the time to stop and grieve.

Danny saw the Doctor as an officer and saw himself in Clara, cast her in the role of a soldier. But if she ever was that, she’s grown out of that role. Even in the moment where she should have been in her element, keeping Rigsy from needlessly sacrificing his life, her words do not speak of compassion. They are merciless with regards to just how futile this is. They end on a call to arms. And she will defeat the enemy.

She truly wasn’t exceptional at being the Doctor just because she was good. It wasn’t only the cleverness and how she saved Rigsy’s life and drew on his talents. She was exceptional because she was just as flawed as the Doctor. Every step of the way. Lies, arrogance, and “people with guns to their head cannot mourn” are embraced without a look back.

Does Clara realise it in that moment? Or has she yet to notice that she is losing her grasp on what it means to be good, in the way that Clara Oswald is good?

The Art Assignment 13: Shelf Portrait: Public Library

"No matter who you are, no matter where you live, and no matter how many people are chasing you, what you don’t read is often as important as what you do read."

~Lemony Snicket

As a librarian I’ve always been a firm believer in the idea that you are what you read and visa-versa. For this ArtAssignment, I knew I wanted to do a portrait of my town and was inspired by the quote above to do an “anti-portrait” of sorts. I wanted to see what spine poetry of what our patrons don’t read woud reveal about us as a community.

In accordance with that idea, I selected my books from our sale shelves. These are books that either weren’t being checked-out or were donated and the librarians choose not to add them because we either already owned the book or we knew from experience it would not be checked out if we added it.

Earlier this year a tornado torn through and obliterated parts of my town. My library was spared but many of our patron’s homes and possessions were not.  I’m especially proud of the top picture because it reminds me of how I felt the morning after the tornado when dawn revealed not only the destruction of the tornado but also my town coming together to help each other through the devastation. 

That was this five months ago. We banned together, cleaned up, and re-built our town. We’ve emerging confidently and we’re ready to put the past storms behind us, ergo: on the for sale shelf.

As for the bottom pictures it makes me laugh because, well, I live in a small town in the Midwest. Dumb criminals? The power of rubber bands? This is farm country, and ain’t nobody got time for that.